Am hanging on by a thread, please pray for me

[benzaiten]

Abuse, ptsd, bipolar, severe ocd, gender dysphoria, loneliness, etc has ruined my life. Just now i have lost access to multiple online friends, which was the closest i've ever had to being truly loved/appreciated in my entire life. I feel like everything keeps getting worse, i really dont want to die. I have resorted to stealing drugs lately just to have a bit of rest and relief, even though i know its wrong. Please pray for me (and yes i know about the hotlines, i don't have a phone and i dont want to be put in the looney bin). Mod note: Edit

Thank you all, namu amida butsu

[Kim O'Hara]

Kim

[reiun]

Abuse, ptsd, bipolar, severe ocd, gender dysphoria, loneliness, etc has ruined my life. Just now i have lost access to multiple online friends, which was the closest i've ever had to being truly loved/appreciated in my entire life. I feel like everything keeps getting worse, i really dont want to die. I have resorted to stealing drugs lately just to have a bit of rest and relief, even though i know its wrong. Please pray for me (and yes i know about the hotlines, i don't have a phone and i dont want to be put in the looney bin). Mod note: Edit

Thank you all, namu amida butsu

I will pray that you accept the care you need and deserve.

Best wishes and prayers for your health.

[Linguistic Mystic]

Praying for you.

[pemachophel]

I will also pray for you.

[Mirror]

Thank you all, namu amida butsu

I will pray for you.

As a fellow Pure Land practitioner. You can use your difficult circumstances to strengthen your faith in Amitabha Buddha and vow to rebirth in Sukhavati. Hope you'll find relief in Amitabha's name.

I know you aren't asking for advice, but I believe it might help you as it does to me.

[benzaiten]

Thanks everyone, i am feeling better today