Since I found this forum, I've taken control of my spiritual practice even though I had to grapple with a lot of hard decisions and concepts. I am chanting morning and evening much more regularly. I attended a Nichiren Shu online service. I am not chanting "for" things as much as I am just enjoying my practice. This has given me much more peace of mind.
I ended up with a 4.0 this semester of grad school, submitted a lot for publication, and I've been getting myself out of a harmful situation with my mother. All of these are benefits, but they come not from chanting to "win", but chanting to have the peace of mind that I can be successful right where I'm at and to be confident and calm in stressful situations. I feel a greater connection to Nichiren and the Lotus Sutra now.
You all really helped me with that so thank you
