Ayu wrote: ↑Thu Jan 23, 2020 6:54 pm
So, I doubt my perception always. Do I perceive things as they are? Most likely not at all. And because things are not very real to me, the question
I have been doubting and questioning myself all the time as well, because I know that I could make mistakes and some of the noises I hear could actually be something to do with the neighbour. However, things keep happening, and I have had to conclude that there really is something here. I have not come to this conclusion lightly, and it has taken me literally years to figure it out. I think probably far too long, but that is from doubting myself and perceptions and dismissing for so long as possibly being the neighbour(s).
When I realised (in September last year) that I was hearing things on one side where I knew for certain that the house was empty for about a week, then I became more certain. So I have been having a bit of a strange time since then, and it has been hard to concentrate on anything much. I have been reading all sorts to try and learn about the subject, but sometimes I am finding it's hard to concentrate.
i now wonder how much this might have affected me over the years from this thing sucking my energy - it's bit of a sucker! Or from being affected by having a sense that there is something there, maybe a feeling that something is trying to distract my attention.
I do seem to remember all those years ago the neighbour asking if I had heard strange sounds, and I thought I had but just said no because of not having heard the particular sound she mentioned. The neighbour had a dog, and I remember feeling that there might have been a dog following me up when I went upstairs, and I thought it was perhaps on the other side of the wall (where this neighbour is). So this is not something I have just come up with as I have got older and am sure I am not going senile or mad or anything like that, even if other people might come to that conclusion if I said everything. Anyway I remember being suspicious that this was going on even at times when the neighbour had gone out to walk the dog and I deliberately tried to watch out after that, and one time I went out after noticing something. it would also happen when I was sitting upstairs for a while and then going down - when I got to near the top of the stairs. So I went down and outside and there was the neighbour walking back with the dog - so they had been out. It has gone on like this (or a bit like that) since then. The neighbour saw the surprised look on my face, but when she asked I still didn't say anything because it just seems so strange and crazy to say anything. I am sensing movement around my computer desk as I am typing this by the way. I get this when I am tapping on the keys. Other times it can just feel like it is gradually sucking my energy. Anyway, I originally thought maybe this was the spirit of a dog that might have lived there, or maybe buried in the garden by the neighbour. I actually have no idea what kind of spirit it is.