Loving wrote: ↑Mon May 06, 2019 3:55 pm
I am aware that this is my own perception, by the way.
My situation/temperament is basically this:
If you tell me "Look over there, and you may see a path", I will instinctively look, and once I see, I will walk it.
But if you give me a claim, "Such and such is true. Therefore, this is the path", I will only answer: How do I know such and such is true?
It's perfectly reasonable. That's how I work too.
I know Alan's position on this.
The thing is, if you cling to the metaphysical paradigm of physicalism, you are accepting an article of faith, not a fact.
Now, you say you are undecided, right? Why should it be otherwise? It's just lucid. You still don't have reasons to accept one way or another. Simply, you don't know and acknowledge it. That's a great place to start.
What Alan proposes is that you test it. A working hypothesis, if you will. At least Dharma's alternative to Physicalism CAN be tested. That's the whole point. Then he extensively teaches methods for you to do so.
But if, OTOH although claiming agnosticism one actually clings to Physicalism, things get trickier as Buddhadharma makes little sense under that light. Then there are alternatives, good and way easier alternatives, to cope with this life. At death all your problems are solved. Humanist ethics are enough. Why waste time spending 8 hours or more practicing meditation, for instance? But take this tong in cheek. Alan doesn't entirely dismisses the value of even a secularized Dharma, be it an entry point to the real deal or a stand alone system.
Take your time, investigate and, if you see fit, do learn how to practice as this is the only way you'll know for sure. It works in a sort of positive feedback loop between wisdom and practice.
If you allow me one or two tips, never force yourself to believe anything. It doesn't work. Always question a priori assumptions. Give the benefit of the doubt to a proposed method, go for it consistently and earnestly and your set to discover on your own how things really are. Buddhadharma is said to be like a finger pointing to the moon. This means it is not in its method and conceptual descriptions of the view that you'll find its value. It's only through practice that realization comes about. Words are the map, not the terrain. Very usefull to a point.
You'll also mature as a practitioner and with time and practice, things that make little sense now will be self evident later, not because you want to belueve them, but because you'll know them directly through your own experience. Keep in mind that Dharma practice must make you feel more spacious and free, not oppressed and like having your critical thinking squashed at out your mind. That feeling of ease should be there, though you should know beforehand that there will be ups and downs.
Some initial readings will also help you find genuine value each time you practice, helping you to get rid of future expectations that are the seed of failure. This doesn't mean you shouldn't evaluate signs of progression (because you should), but avoid the anxiety that comes from expecting results after fixed amounts of time.
So, good luck whatever you decide to do!