This seems painfully familiar to me. I’ve been examining why I sometimes feel like I’m avoiding zazen. I’ve never regretted sitting and often feel some sense of ease, sometimes even a sense of pleasure. But then, I want to read something, or listen to something, or distract myself with a game or hobby. I have it relatively easy as I’m retired. Lots of time and a pandemic outside, so nowhere to go.
- All of the events in everyday life challenge us to choose between doing zazen or not. There is a mountain of excuses nearby for postponing or stopping zazen. Within this situation, it is necessary, in order to continue zazen, to have a vision with regard to your own zazen practice that is not borrowed from someone else. How will you foster that vision?
Still, each time, to sit or not to sit?