hellbike wrote:what i have experienced is called kensho.
It was long time ago.
Your (doesn't matters whos exactly) view that I'm deluded is result of believing in black & white world (at least i think so). This irritates me.
Having a flash of insight is not the same thing as enlightenment. When one is enlightened they cannot revert back to ignorance. We are all deluded, so don't get your knickers in a twist. Maybe (definitely) we shouldn't have mocked your claim, we should have just calmly explained to you what we believe you experienced, thing is, you cannot even begin to imagine how many enlighted people have come to this board. Guess what? None of them was enlightened. Maybe one day an (actual) enlightened person will come to this board and claim to be awakened, I imagine that the response they will receive will be similar to case of the boy that cried wolf, only this time the villagers will be eaten and not the boy.
It would be a good idea to go see one of the teachers people referred you to. With some perserverance you will (maybe) experience that flash again, only this time you will know what it is and not get attached to it. Next time it will be a step towards enlightenment instead of just another basis for affliction.
With the eye of wisdom we discover a lot of anger in us, any amount of jealousy, resentment, ignorance, desire - mountains of emotion whose existence we would never have suspected in ourselves... We recognize that most of the faults we perceive in others are only the mirror of our own negativity, the reflection of our own disturbed feelings... At the same time, we relieve the world around us of the burden of our own negative judgements."
Gendun Rinpoche Heart Advice from a Mahamudra Master