Jikan wrote:Please describe the practice that led you to this breakthrough.
I didn't knew anything about neither meditation nor enlightenment before i experienced it.
I broke up with my girlfriend and for first time in my life i decided to accept my situation rather than denying it and with this acceptation of other things in my life has came. After one week i experienced something that i was caling "awakening". I heve came to realization that i was asleep this whole time, just like everyone around me. For next week i have more powerful awakening states every day, and after about one week - i have had achieved maximum, which i was reffering to as "enlightenment". After that i spent 2 years being obsessed about going back to this state, unable to think about anything else.
The only way to achieve this is to be at present. However, this sounds enigmatic and unclear; one could say you have to follow your heart all the time, starting now. It may be hard at beginning, because this inner voice may be drowned because of years of denial - but once on right path it takes very, very little time to "look through the clouds".
My state was not pernament and i'm not sure how should i call what i have experienced - however it was 100% like enlighted people describe their enlightenment.
It's interesting coincidence that i was calling this "enlightement"/"awakening" before i knew that others call it the same way.
This is personal opinion only....so just be aware of that at the very beginning.
I think what you achieved was some kind of a personal revelation....and personal understanding...not "Enlightenment".
In fact I personally don't believe there is such a thing as "complete Enlightenment"....where everything is suddenly known and understood.
There may be a series of personal "enlightenments"..."realizations" I would prefer to call them. Perhaps these "realizations" or "understandings" may be leading to some greater realization...a real Enlightenment later. But I don't know that for certain.
I do know that some of these "realizations" may be accompanied visual effects....I, for example, saw some.
But I came to the conclusion that these visual effects were NOT any total "Enlightenment"....but part of that deep "realization" that I had.
I think anyone who practices Buddhisim sincerely for a long time will go through some of the "realizations" during that time.
But I"ve come to the conclusion they are not "Enlightenment"....they are "realizations".
The crucial questions to ask are:
1. Exactly how did this "realization" change my life?
2. Is that change continuing long after that realization?
3. What understanding did I gain from that realization?
And the most important question:
4. NOW (after that understanding or realization).....WHAT do I DO NOW about it?
Personal opinion again...but....
I do not believe there is one and only one Enlightenment....and I do not believe that Enlightenment gives you any:
2. Physic powers
3. or Magical powers.
In case you're wondering....I thought I saw the all-pervading light....but now I realise that was an illusion.
Beautiful yes, but just an illusion.
And I'm still thinking about that most important question....What do I do about it NOW?
Shame on you Shakyamuni for setting the precedent of leaving home.
Did you think it was not there--
in your wife's lovely face
in your baby's laughter?
Did you think you had to go elsewhere (simply) to find it?
from - Judyth Collin
The Layman's Lament
From What Book, 1998, p. 52
Edited by Gary Gach