Im not saying that Im seeking to avoid budddhahood. Im saying I dont understand it. But then again, im still a common mortal, im not suppose to understand it. Nichiren Daishonin said something to the effect of , when one person looks at the title of the lotus sutra they see the book and the letters on the title. Another person may look at the title of the lotus sutra and see the golden Buddha's. I stand back and ask "What happens if they see only one golden buddha on the title of the lotus sutra. Maybe this stuff that Im going through with the subject of enlightenment may be the three poisons. But it is irreverent because I have a relationship with the lotus sutra and Ill become enlightened. I think its the lite switch type mentality that has brought all of this on. This thread has caused me to look at the lite switch mentality as the culprid.
I like to say that we people are making things very complicated in general, or we focus so much on definitions in order to understand and this is not helping us exactly. We just collect ideas which bring no genuine peace. In case you look once to the webside i posted, roll down till the talk starts. It is a very vast teaching, brought with humour.
Then Buddhism is practice.
Many many good luck.