While I am not necessarily new to buddhism, I am new to serious pursuit.
I'm an artist, a graduate nurse getting ready to take state boards, animal lover and activist, and a somewhat negative person at times. I want to clean up my life - both spiritually and materially. I've always been attracted to the principles and teachings of buddhism, and over the past few years have attended dharma talks and sunday services at a beautiful Zen monastery in my area - but strangely, the place is "cold"....they go through all the motions there, but I felt no sense of warmth or spirituality. I gave up for a while, and was busy with school, but several months ago I bought a tarot deck, "The Buddha Tarot" by Robert Place. Not necessarily a deck for reading, but good for meditation and self reflection. Then my mother gave me a book: "Blue Jean Buddha" - reflections on life from young buddhists. These two small things inspired me to get back on this road.
I would like to start practicing by myself at home, and am in the process of cleaning up my house, getting rid of all the CRAP that has piled up over the years. I find it very hard to relax or concentrate in a cluttered environment. I do yoga as well, and would like to be able to do that at home too - because at this point, I cannot afford classes at a yoga center. It's very hard to let go of some of the things I have, so the cleaning out process is taking some time. It isn't one of those "Well, I'll do that after I do that" sort of thing - but my environment is a mess. It needs to be dealt with before I can do anything at home - which is where I spend most of my time.
I am here because I may need advice, direction, support. At this point, I am not sure I have much to offer. I would also like to meet like minded people, and others like myself.