Hello, I am interested in the middle way. I have thought this through for many years. I am going to be forthright with a dilemma I been having.
I have read books and viewed documentaries of Buddhism from India to Japan. I have met a few people at school whom were from Tibet exiled to India and they had shared good input to help me in my understanding. I have an old friend that grew up in Shin Buddhism and another in Zen...both had some explanations of lessons they have learned. I also have a friend whom has a life greatly improved through Dharma Punx. I have read on the internet about the variations of Buddhism. With that so far I still know nothing and have no idea where I should go.
What I do know is I feel as if I need to learn how to not keep my strings tightened too tight or too loose. I know I can not do this alone anymore with lack of direction and knowledge if I want to progress. Maybe if I lived in a cave and read books the whole time maybe it would be possible? Though I do not plan to do that. I am not looking to be saved but I would like to help myself learn how to change for a better quality of life. I am positive from what I have read that this is the way for me. Does it matter where I go? Seems as it wouldn't matter as the goal is the same? Then again, I know nothing or I wouldn’t be so confused about all this.
Any suggestions what I should do next I am open and looking forward to suggestions.
"Sona, before you became a monk you were a musician". Sona said that was true. So the Buddha said, "As a musician which string of the lute produces a pleasant and harmonious sound. The over-tight string?" "No," said Sona, "The over-tight string produces an unpleasant sound and is moreover likely to break at any moment." "The string that is too loose?" Again, "No, the string that is too loose does not produce a tuneful sound. The string that produces a tuneful sound is the string that is not too tight and not too loose."