That is dificult...to give up the illusion of YOU...your EGO MIND...as being YOU and all else as being OTHER.
From the day you were born as a sentient being your Ego Mind...what you were taught to call YOU...has been trying to control your life.
It has been controlling you by trying to get you to accept the illusion that "I/me/myself" is "good", and "they/others/not me" is "bad".
If you buy into this false scam...this illusion...you will always be under the control of your Ego Mind...your Ego.
I know, I've been there myself.
But if you can see clearly...that this illusion generated by your Ego Mind is in fact false and merely an illusion...without any substance...then a whole new world of inter-dependence (if there is such a term) will open up.
Of course, you've no reason to believe me...and if you try, your Ego Mind will resist that attempt with all it's might.
Because your Ego Mind doesn't want to lose it's control over you. It is inherently selfish.
Please make the attempt.
Because as is said (in another much different context),
"Workers of the world arise! You have nothing to lose but your chains, and a world to gain".
Really, you do have another world to gain if you can overcome that illusion/delusion of Ego.
I've been there also...and seeing all things as inter-dependent....merely a part of one whole entity...is magnificent.
Hope you get there.
Shame on you Shakyamuni for setting the precedent of leaving home.
Did you think it was not there--
in your wife's lovely face
in your baby's laughter?
Did you think you had to go elsewhere (simply) to find it?
from - Judyth Collin
The Layman's Lament
From What Book, 1998, p. 52
Edited by Gary Gach