Epistemes wrote:I don't give up on Buddhism. Chaz would relish in that a little too much. I give up on myself. I don't know why. I just do.
I got a pretty nasty virus Saturday evening - probably the one you have KDT - and I threw up all night long, slept alone and miserable, had stupid 1850s antebellum American Senate dreams: "I say, Mishtuh Congressman, my constituency will stand for these here foibles, nor will I allow myself to transgress the oath that I took as representative..." I watched movies all day Sunday. Stupid meaningless movies. I had to recuperate. Then my girlfriend got sick on Monday, so I tended to her. Now everyone's back to health and I don't care about anything anymore, porn has even lost appeal. **** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.
Awww, sorry to hear about your illness. Good to hear you're giving up on self. Since these things only have the significance and meaning we assign to them, consider regarding your illness as purification. . .
here's a beautiful medicine buddha chant for you as you recoverhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDvEt2qSFbU