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I give up

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I don't give up on Buddhism. Chaz would relish in that a little too much. I give up on myself. I don't know why. I just do.
I got a pretty nasty virus Saturday evening - probably the one you have KDT - and I threw up all night long, slept alone and miserable, had stupid 1850s antebellum American Senate dreams: "I say, Mishtuh Congressman, my constituency will stand for these here foibles, nor will I allow myself to transgress the oath that I took as representative..." I watched movies all day Sunday. Stupid meaningless movies. I had to recuperate. Then my girlfriend got sick on Monday, so I tended to her. Now everyone's back to health and I don't care about anything anymore, porn has even lost appeal. **** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.
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Maybe your practice is working?

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I agree with Virgo. I just had a similar breakthrough myself.

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Epistemes wrote:porn has even lost appeal.
Porn had an appeal? I always saw it as being pretty gross, even before being Buddhist. So at least you are on the right track if it is no longer appealing to you.
**** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.
Sounds like indifference, an improvement, but near enemy to the desired brahma-vihara of equanimity.
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Virgo wrote:Maybe your practice is working?

Kevin
There's no practice, only shadows.
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Use it as motivation for practice.
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Epistemes wrote:
Virgo wrote:Maybe your practice is working?

Kevin
There's no practice, only shadows.
If you see that, then you are on the right track.
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So now that you have given up are you gonna get the tattoo removed?
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gregkavarnos wrote:So now that you have given up are you gonna get the tattoo removed?
Yes, and I am thinking of getting it replaced with the White Tree of Gondor

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or something more James Brown

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That's obviously a post-mortem icon of James Brown the guy has tatooed on his chest.

As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
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gregkavarnos wrote:That's obviously a post-mortem icon of James Brown the guy has tatooed on his chest.

As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
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Nah Greg you are more Gimli the dwarf.

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antebellum American Senate dreams ...

hahahaha

Sorry ... that's just awesome. I dunno why it just is.

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How years ago in days of old, when magic filled the air.
T’was in the darkest depths of Mordor, I met a girl so fair.
But Gollum, and the evil one crept up and slipped away with her, her, her … yeah
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So........
do you think this feeling is permanent?
EMPTIFUL.
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PadmaVonSamba wrote:So........
do you think this feeling is permanent?
Nothing's permanent, silly monk.
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gregkavarnos wrote:That's obviously a post-mortem icon of James Brown the guy has tatooed on his chest.

As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
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It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.
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Nangwa wrote:It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.
:jawdrop:

Heretic. Burn.
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Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote:
Nangwa wrote:It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.
:jawdrop:

Heretic. Burn.
I know right. I dare not speak such words in the presence of my brothers-in-law.
"All phenomena of samsara depend on the mind, so when the essence of mind is purified, samsara is purified. Since the phenomena of nirvana depend on the pristine consciousness of vidyā, because one remains in the immediacy of vidyā, buddhahood arises on its own. All critical points are summarized with those two." - Longchenpa
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Nangwa wrote:
Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote:
Nangwa wrote:It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.
:jawdrop:

Heretic. Burn.
I know right. I dare not speak such words in the presence of my brothers-in-law.
Actually I speekee your language. A few of my friends have been telling me it's the best thing since sliced bread. And now we have it on the TV too so I suppose I should get reading/watching ...

But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
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Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote: But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
Thank you. I was beginning to wonder....
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Epistemes wrote:
Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote: But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
Thank you. I was beginning to wonder....
Which piece of you is the essential part? Where is your essential being? Is it your hair, your nails, skin, teeth? Your feelings? If so is it anger, happiness? Aren't feelings always changing? So where is this essential being?

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Virgo wrote:
Epistemes wrote:
Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote: But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
Thank you. I was beginning to wonder....
Which piece of you is the essential part? Where is your essential being? Is it your hair, your nails, skin, teeth? Your feelings? If so is it anger, happiness? Aren't feelings always changing? So where is this essential being?

Kevin
It's my medulla oblongata.
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