I'm very, very interested in learning more about buddhism. But for some reason, books just don't cut it with me. I'd rather learn by practicing buddhism as opposed to reading about buddhism. So I've visted my local zen center and learned how to meditate. It's very frustrating though because it's extremely difficult to keep those thoughts down and focus on my breathing. The first time I met with the zen teacher, he told me "Concentrate on your breathing." The second time I went there he said, "What did I tell you to do the last time?" I said "Concentrate on my breathing." "Yes, keep doing that."
I wish he would offer a little more instruction then that because I don't feel like I'm getting anything out of my meditation and it feels like the more I do it, the worse I get. Not only that, but I hate having to shell out ten dollars for a donation everytime I attend their group.
I really want to learn from someone but I'm starting to get frustrated.
Also, as a side note, I didn't exactly "pick" zen either. I'm not really sure too much about the differences between the various branches. I just picked that because that was what was, locally, available.