Epistemes wrote:I'm not entirely new to Buddhism, but I'm having to re-learn it all over again.
Epistemes wrote:What do I hope to gain from Buddhism? I don't know - peace and understanding for now. Those would be my immediate goals with it. The more I learn and the more I practice meditation, I suspect those goals will change and become deeper and more to the point.
LastLegend wrote:What stops you from having peace?
Epistemes wrote:LastLegend wrote:What stops you from having peace?
A lack of wholeness and integration.
It's been 30 years of low self-esteem, broken relationships, self-abuse, burning bridges, identity crises, and the party favors that comes with it all.
Epistemes wrote:I find that I'm already getting sort of lost. Maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself. This site seems to be for people who have practiced Dharma for years, not beginners like myself who don't know which way the wind is blowing due to remaining unmindful and unawakened and not even realizing what those concepts mean though I use them so casually.
I sense that my frustration will ultimately allow me to leave this path by the roadside like all the others.
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