AlexanderS wrote:I wouldn't say I feel better as the conditions for my misery is still present. But I'm happy I made the effort and I had a quite exotic experience which I don't have anyone to share with since I don't have a teacher.
Keep practicing. May your experiences continue and get stronger and stronger. Keep remembering the conditions for your misery are only temporary. I know it's terrible, but keep practicing please. Attain the pure land and help all of us still suffering here! I'm really glad to read that you made the effort and have some amount of satisfaction for doing so. You may not yet have the close relationship with a teacher than you desire, but consider that you are now connected with a lineage, through whoever taught the phowa course - that teacher and all the teachers who taught them, all the way to Buddha. Keep going, with practice the right teacher relationship is bound to come to you. Peace and love. Om Amidewa Hri.