It is like saying "lisehull you will never fully enter into the practice" and that this may act as a further source of dismay and disenheartenment for somebody already experiencing difficulty in their practice?if you want to really fully enter into the practice...
Now you go on to say
Which kindda implies that whoever does Nogondro outside of retreat is not a serious practitioner....there is a reason it is traditionally done in retreat among serious practitioners.
And what of this statement
Here you are implying that outside of intensive retreat purification is merely theoretical. Do you have any scriptural or oral teaching evidence for this?...the purification becomes much more than theoretical.
Implies that only those that do Ngondro within a retreat context are truly interested.So if you are truly interested...
I think you will also find that one can completely immerse themselves in practice in a retreat context and still be merely dwelling in neurotic thoughts and distractions. I personally know of a couple of people that have informed me of this reality.
This obsession with "numbers" overshadows the crux of all practices: sincerity. Without sincerity neither environment nor the total daily accumulations will mean anything at all.
PS I agree that retreats can be helpful, but they are not essential.
PPS Keep at it lisehull, it's definitely "worth the effort"!