Hi all,
As one of the preparation practices before starting the actual Lamrim meditation, I try to develop Bodhichitta. My understanding of bodhichitta it is the wish to attain Buddhahood to benefit all sentient beings and it's both compassion and wisdom. During this phase in my meditation, I try to generate a feeling of compassion and I'll contemplate those who I know are currently suffering (such as the people in Japan), or even friends I know who're undergoing a tough time, and I'll try to single pointedly focus on this feeling. I'll finish this phase of the prepatory practise by repeating the prayer, 'Through the virtues I gain by giving and other perfections, may I become a Buddha for the benefit of all" several times.
But I'm not sure if I'm doing it right. Am I on the right track?
I sometimes feel that I rush the prepatory practises so that I can get stuck into the main body of the Lamrim meditation, as I feel more keener to meditate on 'Our precious human life' (for example), rather than go through what can feel like the mundane prepatory practises.
Also, once I'm on the main body of the meditation (such as 'our precious human life'), it often feels like I'm doing more reading than meditation. At the end of each meditation, I try to recall a pertinent point, such as 'don't waste my precious human life on less worthy distractions, when I could be practising dharma' and I'll meditate on that, but as I say, it mostly feels like reading than meditating. Will this change as I become more familiar with the text?
If anyone could share their experience of Lamrim and the prepatory practises, aimed at a n00b to Lamrim, I'd much appreciate it.
Thanks!


