What's up, Individual?
I'm glad to see you started the new year the right way by visiting a lama, too (I had my own experience which I may describe later).
Have you ever tried meditating? That might help settle your continually rushing thoughts and emotions.
Individual wrote:I've never hit my mom but once, I threw something at her, almost hitting her. After that moment, I realized what a monster it was and vowed at the very least that I would not throw things in anger, because that's what leads to hitting.
Perhaps, you should try to move out. Sometimes it's better just to get away from people who anger you for a while. Later when you've become more stable, you can work with your more difficult feelings. Or at least spend a significant amount of time out of the house. I feel great peace now that I no longer live with my mother.
Individual wrote:When you think about it, early Buddhism was about simply avoiding committing immoral acts and being happy with that.
No, it was more than that. The doctrine of "non-self" and the 12 dependent links were also in the earliest Buddhist teachigs. These concepts go beyond simple morality.
Individual wrote:That seems so great. Tibetans' claiming that we should use fetters for positive change and magic ritual... It seems kinda like early Buddhism was a Jedi practice and Tibetan Buddhism is a Sith practice. Look into the Star Wars stuff. That's exactly what Jedi and Sith are.
Dividing things into "dark" and "light" is a pointless exercise of the dualistic mind. You could just as easily try to label Theravada as "yin" and Vajrayana as "yang" which would be equally meaningless.
Don't overexaggerate the wrathful practices of Tibetan Buddhism. Tibetan Buddhists spend most their time thinking about having compassion for all beings...and they don't spend their time hitting people with red, double-edged, laser-swords!
And you forgot the key aspect of motivation: Tibetan Buddhist seek to benefits all sentient beings (including themselves), whereas the fictional Sith only care about themselves. This is the main reason why your analogy is incorrect.
Also, if one interprets jedi from a Buddhist point of view, the jedi are mainly concerned with developing siddhis, whereas most Buddhists' main concern is the cessation of suffering.