Thanks for explaining all this to me. Yes, it is easy enough to see and feel these emotions vanish. They are immediately back when I think one of my negative thought, like a punch in my stomach, my throat is getting tight...so, my problem is rather those thoughts than the corresponding emotions. Today for example it is extremely difficult to get in a more calm, relaxed state. I don#t even have to think concrete thoughts, they are always there and with them those underlying emotions. Vicious circle.
Yes, in Buddhism there are categorizations of types of thought based on experiential observation via refined meditative states. There are the standard gross level thoughts that are obvious and which we normally, and relatively easily, identify as "thought". But there are also subtler levels or undercurrents of thought which are more challenging to identify but which still (mis)direct our awareness and disperse our energy. Sometimes these subtle underlying thoughts are repetitively fanning the flames of some unpleasant storyline or negative emotion and locking us into a pattern of a negative or anxious state. If our practice is not well established, sometimes we need more of an outer kick to break this harmful lineage.. I mean this in the form of paying attention to outer contributing conditions that could be aggravating our subtle elements: habits of body and speech, not only mind (mind is not isolated). So, for instance, doing yoga practice that redirects or harmonizes the inner winds may be beneficial, or a more intensive physical exercise could also help break through... or adjusting one's diet, etc. --In particular, some modern socially acceptable stimulant drugs like caffeine in high quantities like that found in coffee, or nicotine, or similar-- can aggravate our mental states.. Or in the speech dimension, doing some chanting of sacred sound or mantra can also have a positive effect that could instill a shift in the minds patterning.. whereas idle and relatively meaningless chatter can further aggravate ones mind.. Just another thought/s..
Are you also incorporating a regular (daily) meditation practice of some kind? This is also bound to help. . . in fact it is the most essential.