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Once upon a time there was a Zen monk who practiced in a deserted mountain area.
"Lonely and isolated, he had a deluded thought, wishing to have some fellow monks practicing along with him to make life more bearable. Immediately, an old woman appeared from nowhere, leading two beautiful young girls by the hand, who, she said, lived in the village down in the valley. They had come to seek guidance in the Way. The monk, unsuspicious, immediately gave a Dharma talk to the group. One day, after many such visits over a period of time, the old woman respectfully requested that the two girls be allowed to become attendants to the monk and relieve him of his daily chores. The monk, hearing this, became suspicious. He reprimanded the old woman severely and refused the offer. The three women left, looking angry and ashamed.
The monk, intrigued, followed them discreetly until they disappeared around a bend in the road. When he reached the spot, he found it was a dead end with no habitation or anything else around, except for three very old trees, one big tree and two smaller ones. He thought it over and realized that he had been 'tested.' A fleeting thought occurred to him, that he should cut down the trees, start a bonfire, and burn them to the ground. At that moment, the three women reappeared, repentant, begging him to forgive them and spare their lives.
Therefore, the cultivator should remember: when the mind is still, all realms are calm; when delusion arises, demons are born."
For many years, I was like this line: "Lonely and isolated, he had a deluded thought, wishing to have some fellow monks practicing along with him to make life more bearable."
Although I live in the city, but years of encountering the usual human politics and strife in many temples, Monasteries and Dharma Centres, those days when I was active, have put me off that I went into a self imposed 'exile' for many years to gather back my own senses and unwind from all that bitterness.
Only last year, did I 'make a come back' online, that too with caution...
What's your experience?