KonchokZoepa wrote:i dont have any special skills to offer, only things i can do is clean and make some food.
lobster wrote:KonchokZoepa wrote:i dont have any special skills to offer, only things i can do is clean and make some food.
Volunteer. Teach yourself what you want to know or feel is valuable. Clean better and make better food. I notice you can use a computer, speak English. You are probably able bodied. Not everyone is, they need cleaners and being fed.
Your special skill is wanting to serve the dharma
That is a rare skill. You will do fine.
jeeprs wrote:I wanted to be a musician, and enlightened, like Carlos Santana (or so I thought at the time).
futerko wrote:jeeprs wrote:I wanted to be a musician, and enlightened, like Carlos Santana (or so I thought at the time).
A noble ambition, like this guy...
My story is almost the exact opposite (except for the enlightened guitar hero, which in my case was Hendrix).
KonchokZoepa wrote:... I am struggling with this, i feel like going on a pilgrimage, go to long meditation retreats and ngondro retreats at least for the next spring and next year. but at the same time i start to feel like i am running away from my responsibilities and i will after that come back to square one with no foundation in this world, as a total wanderer and have to start working with a foundation, again one and half years older than before. ...
Is it worth it? do you feel that for some of us the life of a westerner is just not meant for us. i am basically at square one. havent started building a life in the western world. and i dont want to. but i feel like its my responsibility..
should i strive to become a monk and forget this western world for like 5-10 years and think about it again then or what ?
it seems to me that in my situation it is impossible to live two lives, i cant see the way. its like choose hell or heaven. stay as wanderer which is in a sense quite easy and enjoyable or build a house on a sea which is not very comfortable place to build a foundation for a house.
some thoughts. all thoughts from you what this brings up in your mind are greatly appreciated. any thoughts, answers, anything please comment....
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