Alright. I guess you could say when I was around the age of 13 I had attached to the complex of materialism, probably grasping (in the wrond direction) for a sense of belonging of happiness. Since I was very young, I think around 6, I had been pumped full of medication, mostly antideppressants and mood stabilizers. When I turned 14, I was a sophomore in highschool, this is when I became so depressed I was constantly sleeping, through no intention of my own, through every class. During this time I was moved into special education and flunked until eventually I couldn't go anymore. During my "dog days" I had several suicide attempts. Until around two years ago when I began to consume cannabis, I think this reupped my seratonin levels, although I was still far from what you could consider happy. Then I found Buddhanet, and read about the eightfold path. that was around sixth months ago. Upon reading the diamond sutra,and looking back, I see a completely different being than I now understand as me now.