KonchokZoepa wrote:for me i am a little bit drawn into a city where i could be an active part of the Dharma cetner. help me learn to be with people. but on the other hand i dont need the confusion that comes with it and i find it much more fruitful to practice at home and just go for empowerments and teachings when i have the chance and some retreats. i dont know if the group energy with the practices would be beneficial or not but i think it could potentially be a disturbance. and drive me out of my center. and i tend to feel very strongly peoples vibes and i am not sending the best vibes out either so i get in this mucky energy and that is not good and i have also started to like this yogi idea more than socializing bodhisattva type.
That just sounds like rationalization to have a "safe" practice, instead of one that challenges you. I mean no offense, I get where you guys are coming from with the desire for solitary practice itself, and I definitely get annoyance with difficult people. I consider my home practice to be my "main" one. Just seems like it's really easy (and not necessarily the best thing) in this day and age to opt out of most in person Dharma interaction and call it "being a yogi". Honestly in group practice, if you are getting "bad energy" from people, that should be part of the practice, and I think avoiding it on those grounds
is a cop-out. Sorry to be blunt, I just think the above reasoning is questionable. Not saying no one should practice in solitude, as obvious many do and there's a rich history there.
The other thing about actually attending a physical location is that (depending on circumstances, i'm lucky in this regard as teachers are always there) you get to see your teacher more often, which is my main reason for going, every time I go I get some tidbit, or am able to ask some clarifying question and get a response that in many cases just wouldn't translate over email etc. Personally when it comes to this kind of interaction, I would choose in person every single time, though I do acknowledge that doing so also means putting up with other people I may not get along with, and all that jive.