anyway i also have been buffled how to use mala, first i did back and forth changing directions always at the guru bead. now i always cross it and go one direction.
and i also think now that i come to think symbolically that crossing the Guru bead could mean union with Gurus mind and crossing over from duality to non duality, from samsara to nirvana etc.
You have a good imagination, but perhaps you are thinking this up on your own, it sounds good but in actual practice may not be what your teacher would instruct. You could ask your teacher (past or future tense) who gives you the empowerments and practices you are doing with your mala for concise instructions on its use, and also the proper way to handle your mala. Perhaps if he/she is leaving town after the empowerment, a senior student who has many years experience could help.
If your teacher, who gave you your empowerments says not to cross the bead in a very direct way, then its best to follow your teacher's instruction, however if you accidentally cross it, then don't get hung up, and remember that its "just for counting"... this could put you at ease...but actually imho thats not all a mala can be (only a counter), it can become a precious mala imbued with the blessings of your practice, your yidam for instance, and the blessing of your root teachers ...teachers may say things to help us westerners relax and not be uptight about our own "wrongness" or "rightness" especially in the beginning. A Lama will often find the common level of the group he/she is addressing, and speak in ways that suit their audience and put them at ease, this way of relating is skillful, why? because westerners can feel that they are maybe going to do everything the wrong way, after all, it's not something everyone is familiar with, so saying "its just for counting" can be skillful, and saying not to get hung up can be skillful. Actually doing all kinds of things, like playing a damaru, ringing the bell while chanting and turning the pages of a pecha while doing these things, and also holding your visual clearly, and pronouncing things well, especially when one begins to do these things and do them all at once can be rather daunting for people.
As I said, I just followed my teachers instruction, and his name is on this thread, thought you might like to know what he said. If your teacher who gives you your empowerments says to keep crossing that Guru bead (although I doubt it) then who am I to say your Guru isn't working for/with you? What I know is that my teacher would correct me if he saw me crossing the bead and I also know about myself, I wouldn't be inclined to work with a teacher who would be telling me in an absolute kind of way to do the opposite of that instruction unless there was a very
good explanation in detail why that instruction is so different. I'd also want to know what purpose it serves, and where does that teaching come from.
So you can check with your teachers quite thoroughly right?
Everybody has their own karmic connections and teachers, not everybody has a karmic connection to the same teachers for example, so it's not a problem, but I hope you have a good connection to your own authentic teachers and eventually a profound connection in your heart to what they teach you, this is what I'd wish for anyone who is practicing. I feel strongly its important to be guided in the beginning by qualified and authentic teachers, rather than wonder what to do and to "experiment" on one's own to the point of making things up.
I've never heard a Rinpoche who gives empowerments and instructions for practice say "just make everything up as you go" rather than explain in detail what to do and how to do it, and also very importantly, why
to do it, this is especially true of authentic teachers who are giving transmission.
Asking him or her how to use your mala would be a great way to relate to your teacher, how to use your fingers, where to place the mala (not on the floor even though you might have an idea that its neither dirty or clean there) ask him/her why it shouldn't go on the floor, because still you have to pay respect to what your tradition is actually doing.
Stay safe young skywalker!