you say weapon like its a bad thing. sometimes you need wrath when peaceful deities dont work.
If you use a wrathful mantra out of anger it is nothing other than black magic. The wrathful rituals must never be used by any other motivation than compassion.
are you sure you cannot do wrathful rituals with selfish motive for wanting purification and good qualities and pure energies and purity of mind for oneself, im not talking about harming others or having a negative intention to practice the wrathful sadhanas.
i have to say that one of my motivating factors is fear of being killed, and i want to rely on the help of vajrakilaya to purify my mind, my interconnectedness and that way purify others, all that so all is in better condition, less negative forces so better conditions for practicing Dharma.
basically if you want to purify or destroy hostiles forces, inside and outside with wrathful manifestation because you want to get rid of obstacles to succesful dharma practice and life, isnt it compassion in some sense, it benefits beings. doesnt harm them at all. actually helps them.
also if i want to manifest as vajrakilaya and destroy hostile and self destructive forces. i am doing nothing but benefiting the world.
hmm. this a little bit of mind clearing for my self. please, comment, lets reflect.
If the thought of demons
Never rises in your mind,
You need not fear the demon hosts around you.
It is most important to tame your mind within....
In so far as the Ultimate, or the true nature of being is concerned,
there are neither buddhas or demons.
He who frees himself from fear and hope, evil and virtue,
will realize the insubstantial and groundless nature of confusion.
Samsara will then appear as the mahamudra itself….