I'm on the cusp of making a commitment -- of declaring a kind of internal formal intention -- to live mindfully. Not just now and then, but as a way of life.
It feels like a huge decision, because it essentially means letting go of the storylines that have kept ME going all these years, that keep ME going.
The great joys and great sorrows, the often delicious (melo)drama of living the stories is revealing itself to be not enough.
My idea is to commit for a period of time, say three months, and then assess. I'll start with moment-to-moment mindfulness/awareness (without being obsessive or heavy-handed about it). And, depending on how things go, I'll gradually add in on-the-cushion sitting: samatha, vipassana, vivid awareness.
I know many of you have been at this fork in the road. I would appreciate your advice, comments, encouragement.
No one really knows anything. (I think.)