Fake it till ya make it?
I didn't get anything out of it for a while, but I get to do it with a Lama leading it, and all the instruments and such, so i'd go anyway because the instruments and musical part of the sadhana really grabbed me, even if I had no immediate reaction to the deity. Eventually the visualizations just kind of "happened" coupled with the English text, the language is pretty evocative. In my case it really helped to read about the meaning of some of the stuff in the sadhana, for Chenrezig and Green Tara practice, as well as really focusing on specific parts of the text that grabbed me.
If it's just the mantra, you can just concentrate one pointedly on the sound, melody etc., no need to force some contrived sense of devotion if it isn't there I don't think.
An explanation i've found really helpful is that there aren't any "incorrect" practices if the motivation and intent is there, as long I do the practice correctly to the best of my ability and put forth effort, there's nothing to be ashamed of, including perception that my mind is doing the wrong thing, or rather, my mind doing the "wrong" thing is part of the practice, rather than outside of it.
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"Just as a lotus does not grow out of a well-levelled soil but from the mire, in the same way the awakening mind
is not born in the hearts of disciples in whom the moisture of attachment has dried up. It grows instead in the hearts of ordinary sentient beings who possess in full the fetters of bondage." -Se Chilbu Choki Gyaltsen