maxaroni13 wrote:I need help quitting pornography I would love to be celibate someone please provide me with prayers I can do aspirations or resources or just encouragement Ty namaste
probably you don't want to be celibate. Pornography is experienced differently by different people but if it is a problem: consider, what are the karmic consequences of pornography and indulging in pornography? Some people say there are no real consequences, but if you like sex then this plants a seed for further indulgence. What are the karmic consequences for the people who are involved in pornography. They often experience suicide and drug addiction and for some sexual illness at much higher rates than their respective counterparts. Like all people, they want to be liked and do something they are good at. Many have found it (I'm being serious here) so if they have a perception that they are popular as a result they often continue producing porn. Some of those people then have increased opportunity for simple negative behaviors like suicide, drug addition, etc. to say nothing of increased negative interpersonal issues (this depends on people's personalities of course, but increased interpersonal and verbal violence is not unusual).
Then, does pornography satisfy you? If it did, you would view it once or a few times and never return to it. Instead for most people it's like drinking salty water. Then the Mahayana teachings often use a formula that goes like, for each moment of a negative action, you experience the karma for 500 lifetimes. In fact karma depends on the motivation, intensity of the action and the underlying defiled emotion. Most pornography indulgence is setting people up for rebirth in the animal or hungry ghost realms but there are a couple of hells specific to sexual misconduct. At any rate, pornography is not a path to higher rebirth (human, asura or god realms) and is always a path to lower rebirth (animal, hungry ghost or hell realm).
Then think about why you like pornography. The actual reasons can vary for people but the answers are often surprising to people. In general indulgence in pornography is not just due to normal sexual curiosity although it can begin that way. But actual indulgence in pornography is a desire for something other and can be a result of lower self-esteem (which is often repeated but for many people really is true). However you are a child of the Buddha's so you might want to think about that.
Then, is there a possibility of embarrassing the Buddha's? They can't be embarrassed but other people may call Buddhism into disrepute as a result of your actions. This happens with sincere practitioners of all religions of course but this idea of embarrassing the Buddha's comes from Milarepa so it is something to be considered. Another version would be, are the Buddha's pleased with pornography addiction?
So basically pornography is a form of harming yourself and others and not a way of helping yourself and others.