Gyaltsen Tashi wrote:I can't even bear to read my own shit.
Well stop writing for a while if you don't like what you read.
I know the feeling but maybe words are ok in their own dimension. Just don't have big expectations.
--- and some words are pretty helpful ---
Especially the well meaning words of the lineage holders like DKR. Thank you OP.
But maybe also not so necessary - like painting flowers or sex with your cloths on
So when your mind obsesses and goes round and round without stopping, shout "PHET" (in a place where you will not disturb anyone) and observe the space in your thoughts, after.
Or have a warm fuzzy - do something that has made you feel good before. This can be a very small thing. Just call it "progress" or "getting success". Have a bubble bath - make some pop corn - put some popcorn in your bubble bath????? The point is to be creative and create a gap and reverse the downwards spiral.
Of course tooooooo much chocolate, or ice cream, or wine, etc. is not a good thing. And a warm fuzzy can just be stopping from banging your head against the wall (figuratively speaking), or your partner, or relative, or boss, for a while. The point is to make a gap in the spiral and from within that gap create the capacity to take off in a different direction.
Or saying something truthfully nice to someone who is TOTALLY nasty or impossible. This really freaks them out - creates a gap. Like, "wow what a nice Kalashnikov you have Mr. Terrorist - you must have polished that for hours!" - You have then entered their dimension AND given them a warm fuzzy that MIGHT allow them to see a gap and keep from doing another bad thing to someone on their downward spiral.
Can you say something that gets the next person you talk to to laugh? I'll settle for mild amusement. Can you get a laugh out of the next stranger you meet? If you get someone to smile you are smiling too.
If all else fails, remind yourself that whatever shit storm / fubar you are in, it will pass and later you will laugh at yourself and all the trouble you have caused yourself and others.
Maybe, it is like that.
Now where did I hide that chocolate?