Welcome Tim/Wu Wei!
I hope that we will be able to clarify some of the points that may be leading to your misunderstanding.
When I run into them I am sure I will post them
Welcome, Oh Tim!
Tim the Enchanter (Sorry, I think I may have watched to much M0nty Python)
Hi Wu Wei and welcome.
I went through a similar process when I started out too.
Good to hear, at least I know it is not just me
Welcome! Re-reading dharma books can be like reading them for the first time - always a new surprise!
I have run into this with other books and I look forward to running into it again with these. What is amazing me is that when I sat them down I was certain I would never pick them up again because I was very much in disagreement with them. What that disagreement was I can no longer remember but I will be rereading them