Yes.onecalled3 wrote:And after all, aren't we the sum of our tendencies?
Don't worry, we all have!I've had some real karmic trash collecting in my gutter for a very long time...
Commitments? Like what?The only reason I'm balking at Buddhism is because I know it means commitments that I'm not ready to make.
Insights are cool, but you need wisdom and a "program" that allows you to assimilate the insights into your day to day existence. This program does not need to be Buddhist, but if your approach is haphazard, then there is a real possibility that the insights will just be lost (again).Is it better to dive in head-first, an approach to life that I'm already once bitten, twice shy about, or to not rush and let the insights come to me as they will?
gregkavarnos wrote:Commitments? Like what?
kirtu wrote:you may be imagining things.
kirtu wrote:Out of curiosity, was it an anti-civ orientation (Derrick Jensen etc) that you were involved in?
onecalled3 wrote:Around September, I began having memories of past lives. At least one of them has been confirmed and identified
PadmaVonSamba wrote:onecalled3 wrote:Around September, I began having memories of past lives. At least one of them has been confirmed and identified
How does one have such a thing confirmed and identified?
How do you know this isn't all just in your imagination?
What I do know is that the first memory to apparently match real facts closely was an image I saw of a grave. And yes, I know this would have to be "after death." Some decades after, in fact, judging by the size of the tree by the grave. But from the position of the tree, the layout of the headstones, and the unique style of the fence, I was able to pin down one highly-specific location out of hundreds of thousands of graves: Ferme Buterne Military Cemetery, row C, plot 1.
From there I got a partial name, "J. Harris," along with a rank, serial number, regiment and battalion.
Ayu wrote:But everything that happens in the mind might try to tell something. So maybe these things give an information about the state of mind right now and about the direction, it wants to go.
onecalled3 wrote:... That doesn't change the fact that it's got me thinking about my bad tendencies and wanting to change them, or that it's got me thinking about Dharma.
onecalled3 wrote:Why not someone who actually had their life in order?
onecalled3 wrote:Time to stop procrastinating I guess.
Why did I hit myself so hard on the head with my own Karma to get here? Most people can take a hint the first time around.
onecalled3 wrote:And yet, I'm so deeply involved in attachments and un-buddhist habits that I feel I'm just not pure enough for this.
onecalled3 wrote:I feel like I don't deserve to know about past lives or anything like that.
onecalled3 wrote: I'm just a dumb transsexual hipster who doesn't know what to do with her life. I had to have a psychiatrist sign off on my hormones and they do set the mental competence threshold pretty high for that, so I'm pretty sure I'm not a nutjob. I just never thought of myself as being anything more than a novice at anything in life.
onecalled3 wrote:So indulge me a moment. If I'm not a nutcase or a magnificent liar, what is this? I've been wandering in circles. I don't understand how I could know so much even though I know so little. Why a dumb tranny from Portland? Why not someone who actually had their life in order?
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