Sage wrote:Okay, I have been lurking this forum for ages but for some reason never made an account. I love coming here to absorb all the information and enjoy the life-stories I find. I'm not an angry person and meditation has made me more relaxed than ever but something simple took place tonight that has angered me. I am currently doing online classes and I went to check how I'm doing and saw claims I have not been doing my work. I am very devoted to the tasks that I complete and have taken great offense to this and I can feel anger fuming inside that is just "monkey-minding" my meditation efforts.
Of course we could say its attachment or maybe even pride and arrogance. I have already mapped out plans on how to handle it but I fear if it doesn't go as planned and I just get a "No, you're wrong and you have put no effort", I may lash out. This course is very work heavy and seeing good standing to a sudden -%40 shook me.
Reading this it all seems so simple and foolish but it is surely digging.
I came for advice but writing it out seemed to have helped a great deal. I thought such negative feelings in the depth of me were gone but I see they still exist. Although I feel better now my mind still seems a bit "fogged", Have you ever gone back a stage or perhaps if you're able to you were never where you thought you were?
What an introduction?
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