Yes A...I don't doubt the value or necessity of doing that thing.
If anything I may say hints at that thing not having value or meaning of necessity, what I say is then taken wrongly...it has value and meaning.
Me personally, this will probably seem quite odd and faulted
if one performs a ceremony to perfection the top to bottom of it, the side to side of it in its entireity, no matter how mundane the ceremony it will bring attainment.
The closeest I have gotton in ceremony being a small person of limitation is to see all things in a particular hue at times. I suspect some others may also see this but some may forget it ever happens, and to see as result thought, word thought, as light.
I have asked a lama I have received many teachings from if I should employ means to continue this state of light as thought and he has not stated I should.
That would be useing this thing as means of a sort, is what I assume and do agree with what he says to not use it thusly.
The intention as I read it............ is to see life as ceremony. All things as ceremony. And each and every ceremony. As one in the bardo is perhaps taught to see all perspective wombs as temples of understanding one is entering.
Not that but similiar to that.
I can of course elicit with effort thought as light..it is a rather mundane thing of no import nor consequence. I can also elicit hue at times with effort and that likewise is a mundane thing of no import nor consequence.
The lesson I have and it is a personal lesson indeed..... is to see, so all things are seen in this hue, and all thought is light naturally, without means nor complusion...naturally in a way..so they occur naturally always. All as ceremony, which by my take is completely completing ceremony as that is all ceremonies intention....to provide that perfect change.
So I do my little sadahana do my litte things go to ceremony on occasion and mainly wait for this thing to evolve.
A lifetime or two....I suspect firmly it will. It is of no matter it occurs right here and now or there and then really.
So I mainly wait. I do not do that thing, though my not doing is not to infer in any manner it is not of great value.
WE are the same peoples and me in many fashions, but variability is also present.
I could perhaps employ means to do some great physical thing that is not possible.
But I must train train and with great effort and concentration perform that thing.
What then if I then jump into tree 20 feet from ground as result and find myself in that tree with no way then to get down...quite pecarious a position I would be in
I may and must presently in these things convince myself I may do these things. It is not I may automatically know I may do these things.....hence the train train train. But the train train train has purpose but also produces not the result of great physical performance in all things. It has lessons in the training of great sort.... but eventually it must be endeavored in other manner. Which draws from the train train train but is not that.
That is me, not better nor worse, but me..my circumstance of persent sort.
I personally don't care a whit if this produces lesser rebirth or any sort of thing...my circumstance it is, I cannot say it is not. Compassion remains my only test of practice. Any other measure or possibility I have found all to be short and small thusly of not concern.
So we are all different. My circumstance may not be yours. Circumstances they all are only, not better nor worse nor good nor bad.
I do as I am instructed and I was instructed to "let no one tell me I may not", ....watch mind. I sit and watch mind. I wait. In the main that is what I do.
So strange unusual faulted...I care not. It is what I do, have been told I do, will do, and find most importantly I must do.
So off point a bit but it is on this thing of ceremony. Which is part of offerings.
To add...have no fear nor sorrow of my waiting place. My place of waiting is quite magical and various, no sorrow there is to be found in it. So have not that...it occured some may read that and be sad....it is not at all like that. Magical and unnatural all is plastic or wet, not rock nor stone within it...so there is not a hard thing to fall upon nor hurt oneself with in it.
That is as I am not better nor worse than you are nor of course of any accomplishment nor gain(I have none of those nor spiritual attribute of any sort).....but it is what it is...me... how I must act. But it is not sad at all.
"This order considers that progress can be achieved more rapidly during a single month of self-transformation through terrifying conditions in rough terrain and in "the abode of harmful forces" than through meditating for a period of three years in towns and monasteries"....Takpo Tashi Namgyal.