So I posted a topic in Exploring Buddhism talking about my conflict and returning to Buddhism. I decided that I will just do it and get back to it except this time I will just do and practice whatever I feel right instead of associating to any schools, branches or tradition of buddhism. My focus is mainly on meditation. I really dont bother myself much with dogmas or much of what I consider more mystical aspect of Buddhism. So I keep it simple - Just live in awareness of what is here and now.
I decided to set up a meditation area in one of the room that is just empty. I turn it into my personal meditation hall. My partner usually join me in for a short 5 minutes meditation but when I am alone I meditate for about 30 minutes. I try to meditate everyday and it is really helping. I feel less anxiety and is a lot more calm already. I worry less too so I am planning to keep at it.
This is my little shrine that I just want to share. It is actually only 2 feet tall. The floor is wood so i have aat and a pillow right infront of it where I sit to meditate.http://i.imgur.com/Sm2hUSt.jpghttp://i.imgur.com/QtGDZoL.jpg