Every day you have your choices to make. If you are guided by your understanding of the Dharma your choices are easy.
You just do what you feel is right and true.
How else has it ever been?
Even since the Buddha left his home, (that was his choice that he made then) there has always been a choice to make.
Simply choose your path based on your understanding, and follow it.
If you look with undestanding and clarity of vision you may see that not one thing in either the layman's world or the monastic world is anything but a true expression of the Dharma.
You just need to see it and understand it's true nature.
Do not be afraid, there is no shame in unintended failure, If you realise you are going the wong way, just turn around and go where you feel is the right way.
Really, there never has been any other choixe anyhow, has there?
Shame on you Shakyamuni for setting the precedent of leaving home.
Did you think it was not there--
in your wife's lovely face
in your baby's laughter?
Did you think you had to go elsewhere (simply) to find it?
from - Judyth Collin
The Layman's Lament
From What Book, 1998, p. 52
Edited by Gary Gach