Johnny Dangerous wrote:
So, during Chenrezig practice I have noticed some of my "self voices" going insane, particularly with the visualization of oneself as Chenrezig, it literally feels like something is screaming at me and warning me that what I am doing is bad. Obviously I know not to regard this voice as "real", but i'm wondering if this is normal, and if it decreases with time or what?
Sometimes I get some very vivid some nasty energies that aren't usually near the surface, mostly doubt-based and they fight against the practice, disturbing concentration. I get the same thing when I do prostrations but it is milder.
Anyone have similar experiences when they began, and if so, what do you advise?
You can have a lot of uncomfortable experiences when you start "domesticating" your mind. Try to relax, don't visualize with a lot of tension. The most important part of visualization is not a constant visual experience in your mind. If you trust Chenrezig to be ever present compassion, you can relax in that presence, no need to force any visual experience. Let the visualization come in short and inspired flashes that comes from your experience of his compassion.