Johnny Dangerous wrote:
Konchog1 wrote:On one occasion, Lord Tsongkhapa was teaching Emptiness to a crowd and he saw one man grab his collar in horror. Tsongkhapa pointed to that man and said: "He understands Emptiness".
Yes, it's scary but it's either advance or remain where you are. And you don't want to remain where you are. Do you?
No, I want to keep going...as much as that's possible for a middle aged guy with a family., I'm definitely better off than I was before.
I guess i'm just worried about dealing with the abrupt change, biting off more than I can chew so to speak.
We never get more than we can actually handle.
Even if it seems really intense.
If you sit still with fear, it too will pass all on it's own.
It's just like the inscense in my Avatar.
No matter how smoky or intense it is, if you just sit still with it and down act on it or push it away or hold on to it somehow, it will just burn itself away just like the stick.
Though it can be pretty intense. I've had a lot of fear come up in my meditation so this is something I have some experience with.
I've had some things come up where it was like liquid fear, so intense it was all I could do to sit with it, I could barely move.
But it did, and does pass, even if it can be an intense day or few days or even a week or month or so, it will actually pass.
You can have faith in this, because you know the Law of Karma, that things actually do change, including feelings. You've been happy before, joyful, elated, sad, angry, etc.
The feelings will actually pass, so you can be sure you won't feel this way forever, and sooner than you think it will end and pass on.
Like I said, it can be pretty intense, but the fear itself can't hurt you.
What it will want, is for you to act
on it somehow, that surely there must be something you need to do
or some danger that needs to be averted.
There may actually not be, it can actually just be fear, all on it's own, for no apparent visible reason at all. That's actually quite interesting to find out, that moods can arise, even intensely, almost like the weather, as though they are clouds, or our own weather system in our own body.
It's very interesting to watch them happen and watch them pass, with no reason at all for their seeming existence, at least not at this moment anyway.
One thing you'll notice, will start to happen, is as you refuse to give in to whatever it wants you to do, you'll find that it's "reasoning" for your being afraid starts to shift.
First maybe it's your money bills, or a spiritual fear, really intensely, then no, later it's that thing you need to do... then no, did you leave the lights on?? no, then it's your boss, a family member, etc, etc, etc. It just goes on and on until it eventually gives up and passes.
It's really very interesting to watch.
Let me know if you need any more help.
"Life is full of suffering. AND Life is full of the Eternal
IT IS OUR CHOICE
We can stand in our shadow, and wallow in the darkness,
We can turn around.
It is OUR choice." -Rev. Basil Singer
" ...out of fear, even the good harm one another. " -Rev. Dazui MacPhillamy