CrawfordHollow wrote:probably order some Agar 35, maybe it will help me to relax and trust myself some.
You probably don't need that. You probably just need to bring some consistency into your life-- that means waking, eating and sleeping at roughly the same times everyday, doing your practice during the same part of the day every day, and avoiding things that disturb the wind humour like cold drinks, the wrong foods, etc.
I have a schedule that varies from day to day and my days vary from week to week. I get one corporate weekend a month off, other than that I do know no what my days off will be. I sometimes work as early as 6 am, sometimes I don't work until 10 or 11 am, and somtimes I have to work the late shift until 10 pm. Sometimes I have to "clopen" (work until 9 or 10 at night and come right back in 8 hours later), in what can be a stressful environment, yet I keep it together and balanced. If I can do it, so can you Troy, my natural inclination is to wind disturbances. Right now I feel warm, and great. It just takes some practice. Purification of the elements helps quite a bit, on many levels.
Also, treat yourself right and don't hang around with the wrong people.