Don't take this the wrong way, --I don't mean to get into a Fight Club kind of scenario. I meant more that if your true motivation for suicide is boredom, the whole premise is not very well thought out.
I know what you meant. Don't worry, if I pull a Charlie Manson, no one will hold you responsible. Really, though, I don't think there is much I could do to cause any permanent damage to this world -- or any permanent good. Of course, there is always the motive for fleeting personal pleasure that some might give into such as a killing/raping/looting spree. But for me such quaint little atrocities hold no charm. My hatred, lust, and greed were all extinguished long ago. In fact, that may be part of my problem. I'm not motivated by typical human desires.
You never responded to the question about traveling to those places. If you haven't explored the world completely, how can you complain that life is boring to the point of ending your life prematurely? You need to really examine the situation and reflect on the fact that you probably haven't even experienced a fraction of what life has to offer. So your analysis is disturbingly incomplete.
It is true that I have not traveled around the world. But I have been around nearly all the U.S.A (including Hawaii), Canada, and the United Kingdom. I've also explored other cultures in books, through television, and by talking to people. What I see is that, on a superficial level, people are different, but on a fundamental level they are all very much the same.
For example. Every culture has its own idea of what it considers proper sexual behavior. Every sexual deviation you can think of: homosexuality, pedophilia, zoophilia, pedarasty, even rape is considered or has been considered 'normal' in certain cultures. And yet, all
these cultures have also condemned certain types of sexuality which they considered immoral. Thus, I conclude that it is human nature to persecute certain sexual minorities and this will happen in whatever culture humans might create.
Another universally human trait that I don't care for is hierarchy. In every group of humans I have observed a pecking order with one alpha male (or female is rarer cases) on the top, a bunch of brainless peons in the middle, and a scapegoat on the bottom whose sole function is to be the lightning rod/punching bag for the group's frustrations. I can think of much more efficient forms of social organization than this brutal top-down hierarchy, but no one would listen to me if I shared them. Of course, there is democracy. But, as Benjamin Franklin put it:
Democracy is two wolves and a sheep voting on what's for dinner.
Certainly, there are some things I intend to see before I off myself. I very much want to visit Rome and Florence and take in the art there. I'd also like to climb a mountain and get a little skiing in before I die. There are also some hard drugs I haven't experimented with yet such as ecstasy and LSD. However, I am certain that these wishes will not take more than a few weeks to fulfill. And what then?
What can you offer someone like me who can go into meditation for a few minutes and experience the equivalent of a really good marijuanna high? Or can jerk off tantric style and experience multiple orgasms that could make the Marquis de Sade jealous? I'm capable of having a lucid dream any time I want and doing any thing
I want, experiencing sensations so vivid that I cannot distinguish them from waking life. What does this world have to offer someone like me? It has nothing to tempt me with. Nothing to threaten me with. What purpose is there in living when anything I desire, I can have instantly and anything I can't have instantly, I don't desire? Life simply becomes a series of pleasant sensations that add up to zero. There's got to be something beyond... hedonism.
As for your suggestion that I dedicate my life to helping others, I must tell you that I have given the thought serious consideration and have even tried to put it into practice, but my experiences have been ambivalent at best. The sad fact is that most people are not willing to renounce the things that are causing them pain nor are they willing to accept that pain as the price of their attachment. And so they are unhappy all their lives.
Then there are the truly innocent sufferers. The starving child. The AIDS patient. The criminal. I can help individuals like this to an extent, but I cannot abolish the social and economic conditions which cause their burdens. Yes, I suppose I could dedicate myself to helping people like this. It would be a noble endeavor that would keep me occupied forever (I'm reminded of the myth of Avolikiteshvara). Maybe you are right.
People who fast to the point of starvation are known to become highly delusional, to have hallucinations, etc. and therefore the idea that you may become more coherent to the point that "if there is anything bio-chemical about my desire to die, starving myself will alert me to it and save my life. " is a certain fallacy.
Going without food for a week, in my experience, clears the mind and lifts depression like nothing else can. If, after a week's fast, I felt great but still didn't feel like sticking around here for another century, then any subsequent delusions from then on would be irrelevent. Going without food for 6 weeks might
lead to delusions, but by then the decision to die would have already been made, so what of them?
You personally not eating meat a few times a week from the super-market is really not going to save any animals. This is just a simple reality.
I agree. It is simply an ethical principle for me. I don't want to participate in it, even if my non-participation does nothing to change the system. I don't really think there is anything anyone can do. As long as enough people desire meat to make the meat industry profitable, it will exist. Vandalizing fast food restaurants and killing those involved in the meat industry will have no net effect in the long run. Really, like so many industries that some find morally objectionable, it is a matter of supply and demand. The same case can be made for the war against drugs, the war against abortion, the war against child pornography, the war against war... It's all a lost cause and I hung up my sword long ago. But just because I don't oppose it doesn't mean I have to support it. Indifference is my 3rd option.
Adamantine, you've been a worthy nemesis.