I used to be into Buddhism in my 20s, but I started to hang with the wrong crowd. People who were very reductionist, and this made me become very nihilisic.
When I look back there were many causes that made this occur (I don't just blame others).
I then went back to Christianity. In some ways the faith practice in Christianity 'saved me' from completely destroying my life.
Now I am feeling the pull back to Buddhism. Whilst I respect and love our Therevadan friends, I am more attracted to Buddhism as practiced in Japan and China. In my life I have connections to Japan, even though I am a Westerner.
After reading about the cosomology as expressed in the Lotus Sutra I am coming to understand the Great Vehicle Buddhism better.
I imagine for now I will be relatively solitary in my pratice, as I feel no desire or attraction to Buddhist centres in melbourne (for now).
I want to read, medtitate and learn.




