duckfiasco wrote:Right now, I do many little things throughout the day. I try to practice moments of mindfulness when waking up, going through a door, departing, arriving, sitting down, before meals, and things like that. I also take a long walk every day and use not stepping on any bugs as my focus. If they risk getting crushed on a road, I move them to the side. I try to send compassion to any creatures, human or otherwise, that I see.
I do have a hard time sitting X number of minutes a day in meditation. More often, I'll be sitting already and think, "I feel like meditating" and focus on my breath or something in my line of sight for fifteen or twenty minutes. I find if I try to make it a point of "TIME TO MEDITATE!", it feels like a struggle and I have to deal with weird feelings of resentment.
duckfiasco wrote:* Does anyone have any experience or opinion on the Dharma Sun program, or the teachings of Chökyi Nyima Rinpoche?
* The structure and continuous thread of one teacher is what interests me most about the program, not necessarily an instinctual pull towards Tibetan Buddhism. Is this a misguided approach when committing to such a program?
* There are a handful of Tibetan meditation centers in my city, thank goodness. Were I to commit to a program like this, are the differences between Tibetan schools so great that I should try to find a center for that school, or are they more like different shades of the same color? I've noticed that teachings between meditation centers so far, even as different as Zen and Theravada, have the same taste.
Paul wrote:Personally, I think you should just check out what you're interested in - follow your instincts and interests until you find something you want to settle on.
This long, meandering post reflects my state of mind I feel very unfocused. I don't even care about a school at this point... Do I gravitate towards what comes naturally? Do I lean towards what I actively resist in zazen?
Do I investigate visualization further or will that harm me? Is this all nonsense
duckfiasco wrote:Thank you all for your insights and encouragement.
One thing I am a little curious about regarding this Dharma Sun program... I've read here and there about the importance of receiving an empowerment. I imagine this is addressed somehow in an online program, but aren't many Vajrayana practices less effective if not totally ineffectual without receiving an empowerment from a teacher? On a related note, I haven't even officially taken refuge yet, though I'd like to. Feels like there's a lot of preliminary stuff I need to do to make the leap from Dharma dabbler to Dharma student.
Thank you all for your patience and insight.
duckfiasco wrote:Well, I suppose I'll trust the wholesomeness of the practices I do to take me to the right place. There's a Vajrayana center not too far from here founded by Kalu Rinpoche (Kagyu Changchub Chuling). I'll check them out and see where things go.
I feel very ready to take refuge.
Thank you for your insight. It's a weird place to be, between the urgency of how short this life is and the need for patience in a path that has no doubt taken lifetimes to unfold so far.
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