greentara wrote:At first
I was irridescent
I became transparent
I was absent.
Why absent, for Nirvana's sake!! That is simply nihilism!
Nirvana is not annihilation, Nirvana is the attainment of the Three Kayas of buddhahood. In terminology of Mahamudra you attain the spontaneous presence.
In Sravakayana an aspirant to arhathood conquers the three desires: 1. desire for sense experience, 2. desire for non-existence, and 3.desire for existence. Sravakayana too says that Nirvana is beyond the four propositions: existence, non-existence, both, & neither.