Thank you for your answers.
Huseng wrote:Visit many teachers and temples. See who you connect and feel comfortable with.
You don't have to pledge yourself to a single school or sect at the very beginning.
Yes, I know I should... which is not easy, by the way, I hate to travel and it is quite expensive, but there is no way around it. I know that I do not have to make a choice immediately, but still, I feel that first experience (taking Refuge, for example) establishes a kind of special connection between me and that particular school/teacher, so I think it matters too.
Nangwa wrote:Hey Leaf,
Try not to worry too much about this right now.
Go check them out, meet some people and start practicing.
You have to work with what you have in order to find what works for you so dont worry about trying both options before you make a decision.
Also, if you work with one for a while and then move on to the other that is ok too.
You are about to learn a lot about the Dharma and yourself as you start to figure this out.
Have some fun with it too!
I guess it's just my usual perfectionism trying to make my life difficult again. I read about different schools, find things that I like about them, find things that I dislike about them, find schools that I like but which are out of my reach, etc. And all choices begin to look bad one way or another. I need to learn how to take such things easy