your right on the point. i think i have found my teacher though and probly i will never become a monk since lay practice can be equally fruitful. and can in some cases actually prepare for the inevitable death experience better and in a more encompassing way.
what your suggestion was though i dont think its possible for most people who consider becoming a monk since the teachers are rare and it highly depends on where you live.
i live in finland and i have a nyingma lama here so i ought to take my change with him allthough one day there will be a karma kagyu lama coming to permanently reside in finland so when that happens i will check him out. who knows what will happen.
i appreciate your reply though, its very good and useful.
If the thought of demons
Never rises in your mind,
You need not fear the demon hosts around you.
It is most important to tame your mind within....
In so far as the Ultimate, or the true nature of being is concerned,
there are neither buddhas or demons.
He who frees himself from fear and hope, evil and virtue,
will realize the insubstantial and groundless nature of confusion.
Samsara will then appear as the mahamudra itself….