http://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka ... .than.htmlSN 9.9
Vajjiputta Sutta: The Vajjian Princeling
I live in the wilderness all alone like a log cast away in the forest. On a night like this, who could there be more miserable than me?
As you live in the wilderness all alone like a log cast away in the forest, many are those who envy you, as hell-beings do, those headed for heaven.
Hi Cittasanto, I have the same problem on my job, but on the contrary my boss push me to communicte with others, but my traquility is the only treasure that I have, and realy I don't know about what I can talk with other "modern" peoples... But my boss don't understand that.
I would like to exchange with you, I think that you have a great conditions to practice, it's a treasure.
Anyway, if we watch closely we can understand why there is this kind of reactions.
Ego need to be supported, must be feed to survive. This food is the reflect that society returns to you, ego is constructed by this reflect, so when the ego dont get his support of existance, he collapses.
When the mind identifiyng with the personality, with the memory of experiance of the body, this collapse bring a lot of suffer, and can be expressed by this violent way. It's someting normal, it's the reaction of ego who collapse without support. Often i compare modern peoples with crayfish, why ? Because crayfish have an external sceleton who support them, like a peoples, they lives by a reflect that the society retourns to they, they have an external skeleton, they dont have internal spine that support them, they dont have a refuge in themselves.
It's an vey impotant moment to abandon the ego, dont miss the moment of weakness of ego to destroy it completely.
When the home is destoyed, you can build a new one, but also you can leave the ruins, go forth, to the free life of the one who is homeless, ego-less, ascetic, like those awekend ones, having rightly known, fare evenly amidst the uneven SN 1.1.7-8