Nobody can give you a true answer to that question.
You'll have to find the answer yourself, inside you.
But, just for fun, read what comment comes up as my signature when I log off.
Shame on you Shakyamuni for setting the precedent of leaving home.
Did you think it was not there--
in your wife's lovely face
in your baby's laughter?
Did you think you had to go elsewhere (simply) to find it?
from - Judyth Collin
The Layman's Lament
From What Book, 1998, p. 52
Edited by Gary Gach