by PorkChop » Sat Oct 06, 2012 7:04 am
Met chinese buddhism and taoism through kung fu back in the mid 90s, about when i was starting to become disenchanted with catholicism (ironically, i was going through confirmation class at the time).
In college i tried to get more serious, picked up "Entering the Stream" a book where most flavors of buddhism are represented by their more prolific authors.
I wrote it off because I thought it was encouraging nihilistic robots - i guess I didn't get it.
On again off again relationship with Catholicism kept me looking around.
Spent a significant amount of time with Germanic Heathenism around 2004; but gave it up when i saw that whatever loose organization of practitioners popped up would immediately get infiltrated with white supremacists. In the end there just wasn't enough documentation left to practice and enough of an organization of practitioners to practice with.
Went back to Catholicism after a particularly bad breakup in 2006, found myself trying to make others happy, trying to live up to other peoples' expectations, found myself trying to get the girl back, and then found myself praying to God to punish her... realized that it just wasn't the right path for me...
Met my wife, who's a non-denominational Christian (parents are SGI) in 2007. Vacillated between the Catholicism my parents expected of me and her coffee-shop style Christianity for a while, not really being fed by either.
Tried to read the Bible a few times cover to cover before finally coming to the realization that the religion as a whole held absolutely nothing for me.
Last year sometime I found Joseph Campbell and Robert Thurman. Both are/were amazing speakers and I love listening to both of them.
Robert Thurman helped me realize that I was wrong in my initial assessment of Buddhism.
Meanwhile, I was training muay thai full time again and my coach is a pretty "devout" Theravadan from the Thai/Lao tradition.
Got sick with some staph infections this past June (still ongoing) and had a lot of time to read.
Picked up copies of the Bhagavad Gita, Upanishads, and a bunch of Buddhism books- also broke out the huge collection of Buddhist books I've accumulated through the years.
I changed gyms during a temporary lull in the infections and found a boxing coach who was active at a Vietnamese Tian Tai/Pureland/Thien temple.
Started attending the English services with him.
It kind of became a choice between Advaita Vedanta and Buddhism.
My monist tendencies drew me towards Advaita Vedanta, I think the Upanishads is a beautiful piece of literature that all monotheists should read.
In the end I found the teachings of Buddhism to be more profound, the instruction and practice in Buddhism to be much more available.
I like practicing at the Vietnamese temple, but I found that the speakers who really spoke to me were from the Tibetan Gelug tradition (Robert Thurman, Ven Thubten Chodron, Ven Robina Courtin, FPMT, etc).
A few weeks back I attended a teaching by Geshe Soepa at a student-lead Lam Rim group.
I really like the vibe I get from the Lam Rim folks.
I'm going back to Lam Rim class tomorrow in fact, and I've been looking forward to it all week.
I haven't taken precepts/vows yet, so I don't know if I've really "chosen" Buddhism, but I do plan on doing so in the near future.
I still plan on attending services at the Vietnamese temple, at least until I have to make a decision.
I think I'm finally done shopping around...