Can anyone advise me on a book or website that details shingon practices? I have of late been pursuing the pureland teachings but cannot connect to this school in anyway, I would like to learn about shingon and see if this is something I do connect with before I give up completely. Thanks.
No matter what, don't forget one of the Golden rules
"There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way and not starting"
I don't mean to 'blow my own horn' here but perhaps if your having trouble finding the right school for you, you might like to try a particularly eclectic school like Tendai atleast initially? in order to 'flesh out' what feels right for you. Samsara can be difficult, but it's important not to give up
The very nature of this world is 'oppressive', this is Samsara. BUT remember, as Zhiyi (the Chinese founder of Tendai Buddhism) said in his MakaShikan: "Even a beggining practitioner becomes a refuge for the world if he has understood the meaning..."
If you give up, not only will you continue to suffer in Samsara but you will also deny those around you to 'glimpse the Buddha'
never give up!