Funny, I was going to report in as agnostic, but in the course of writing this post realized that I really do believe there is rebirth. So I had to come back up to the top and fix the intro.
It's just that I also still believe that I will die and that'll be the end of me.
On the one hand, years ago I had the experience in (non-Buddhist) meditation of seeing thousands of mental images of
"what could be interpreted as past lives" sequentially flash before my eyes at blinding speed (actually it started slowly with time to observe each one, and got faster and faster and faster until it was so fast that it was too overwhelming to follow, yet each one appeared very distinctly for a nanosecond). No thoughts were occurring while this was happening.
But on the other hand what do I have? Not direct knowledge of rebirth, just a memory of an experience, an experience that doesn't "fit" into the normal state of mind, so it can only be interpreted through the filter of my personal views. I worry that these kinds of experiences can lead to wrong view that can get strongly embedded because of their intensity.
So I never want to draw conclusions from them, and I didn't even realize I had done that in this case until typing this post and realizing 1) that I actually do believe in rebirth after all, and 2) that experience is probably why I do.
Ugh, rambling now... it's been a long week.